1 00:00:06,166 --> 00:00:07,458 LESLIE BENNETT: I'm very happy for you, Rue. 2 00:00:08,541 --> 00:00:10,750 You're about to start a brand-new chapter. 3 00:00:10,999 --> 00:00:12,833 You think 'cause I went to rehab I stayed clean? 4 00:00:12,917 --> 00:00:13,875 (HEAVY SIGH) 5 00:00:14,917 --> 00:00:17,500 BOY: Some new girl I think you're gonna be friends with. 6 00:00:17,583 --> 00:00:19,083 -I'm Rue. -Jules. 7 00:00:19,625 --> 00:00:20,583 Hi. 8 00:00:21,541 --> 00:00:22,750 BOY 2: You're fucking crazy. 9 00:00:23,124 --> 00:00:25,249 I'm just trying to get back at my ex-boyfriend. 10 00:00:26,625 --> 00:00:28,416 CAL JACOBS: You can stay in a town like this, 11 00:00:28,958 --> 00:00:30,083 end up like me, 12 00:00:30,166 --> 00:00:32,124 living your life out in motel rooms. 13 00:00:33,124 --> 00:00:34,416 Why don't you take your top off? 14 00:00:37,500 --> 00:00:38,541 I know what you want. 15 00:00:38,625 --> 00:00:40,416 This bitch is gonna get fucked up! 16 00:00:40,917 --> 00:00:42,917 JULES VAUGHN: You wanna fucking hurt me? 17 00:00:44,917 --> 00:00:46,500 Where you headed to? 18 00:00:47,958 --> 00:00:48,833 JULES: Home. 19 00:00:49,041 --> 00:00:51,625 RUE BENNETT: And then... things got weird. 20 00:01:13,708 --> 00:01:16,208 Rue: Sometimes, when I get really high, 21 00:01:16,291 --> 00:01:17,458 I kind of think I'm psychic. 22 00:01:17,541 --> 00:01:19,124 (chatter, laughter) 23 00:01:20,458 --> 00:01:25,083 Rue: When Nate Jacobs was 11 years old, 24 00:01:25,166 --> 00:01:25,999 he found his dad's porn collection. 25 00:01:27,333 --> 00:01:31,249 His dad, Cal, was obsessive. 26 00:01:31,333 --> 00:01:34,333 His mom always said that's who he got it from. 27 00:01:34,416 --> 00:01:35,917 Then he quickly realized that the colored cases 28 00:01:35,999 --> 00:01:38,083 and placement were no accident. 29 00:01:38,166 --> 00:01:41,375 It was an elaborate code, 30 00:01:41,458 --> 00:01:42,041 one to ensure that no one fucked with his shit. 31 00:01:44,166 --> 00:01:48,750 Cal (on computer): I have a very pretty dick. Do you want to see it? 32 00:01:48,833 --> 00:01:49,999 Boy (on computer): What do you like to be called? Mister? 33 00:01:50,083 --> 00:01:51,541 Master? 34 00:01:51,625 --> 00:01:54,249 Daddy? 35 00:01:54,333 --> 00:01:57,124 Cal: For y ou? You can call me "Daddy." 36 00:01:57,208 --> 00:01:58,917 Open wider. 37 00:01:58,999 --> 00:02:00,625 Wider. 38 00:02:00,708 --> 00:02:01,541 More like that. 39 00:02:01,625 --> 00:02:04,750 -(pounding) -(boy grunting) 40 00:02:04,833 --> 00:02:06,291 -Boy: Yeah! -Cal: Good? 41 00:02:06,375 --> 00:02:08,124 Boy: Yes, Daddy. I'll be good. 42 00:02:08,208 --> 00:02:10,291 Rue: Every video was basically the same. 43 00:02:10,375 --> 00:02:12,708 Cal: Oh, you are all woman, aren't you? 44 00:02:12,792 --> 00:02:14,958 - Mostly. -Cal: Mostly. 45 00:02:15,041 --> 00:02:17,083 Rue: They'd drink, make small talk... 46 00:02:17,166 --> 00:02:18,541 -Cal: Oh, don't make me come. -(gagging) 47 00:02:18,625 --> 00:02:21,166 I-- I want to wait for that. (laughs) 48 00:02:21,249 --> 00:02:23,750 -(moaning) -Rue: ...a nd then his dad would fuck the shit out of some... 49 00:02:23,833 --> 00:02:24,541 Fucking whore. Fucking slut. 50 00:02:24,625 --> 00:02:27,500 -(panting) -(door slams) 51 00:02:28,625 --> 00:02:32,541 -(Nate panting) -(footsteps ascending stairs) 52 00:02:34,166 --> 00:02:35,583 (DVD drive whirs) 53 00:02:37,875 --> 00:02:41,208 (footsteps approaching) 54 00:02:49,083 --> 00:02:50,625 (lock clicks) 55 00:02:50,708 --> 00:02:53,541 (door squeaks open) 56 00:02:56,625 --> 00:02:58,750 (door closes) 57 00:03:03,875 --> 00:03:06,375 Cal: I want to talk to you. 58 00:03:11,750 --> 00:03:15,083 You're a strong man, Nathaniel. 59 00:03:15,958 --> 00:03:18,875 I knew it from the moment you were born. 60 00:03:20,833 --> 00:03:24,750 You have an... iron will, 61 00:03:25,708 --> 00:03:28,041 drive, determination. 62 00:03:28,124 --> 00:03:31,416 I've always admired that in you. 63 00:03:31,500 --> 00:03:34,458 Because some day, it will lead you to greatness. 64 00:03:40,792 --> 00:03:44,583 But no one in this world will ever root for you. 65 00:03:45,208 --> 00:03:49,166 They'll see what I see and they'll despise you for it. 66 00:03:49,249 --> 00:03:53,249 Sometimes you'll know, and sometimes you won't. 67 00:03:53,333 --> 00:03:56,583 But the farther you go, the sharper their blade. 68 00:03:57,999 --> 00:04:00,958 (whispers): Just don't ever give them an opening. 69 00:04:02,500 --> 00:04:04,124 (sighs) 70 00:04:08,708 --> 00:04:15,249 Rue: By 12, he had adopted a rigid diet and workout schedule. 71 00:04:15,333 --> 00:04:18,999 Within a year, his body fat dropped from 23% to 6%. 72 00:04:23,875 --> 00:04:25,333 ♪ Oh! ♪ 73 00:04:26,667 --> 00:04:30,249 (roars) 74 00:04:30,333 --> 00:04:31,500 ♪ Oh! ♪ 75 00:04:32,958 --> 00:04:35,458 ♪ Oh! ♪ 76 00:04:35,541 --> 00:04:37,083 ♪ Player, player, put the money on it ♪ 77 00:04:37,166 --> 00:04:38,166 -♪ Oh! ♪ - ♪ Mm! ♪ 78 00:04:39,166 --> 00:04:40,708 ♪ Oh! ♪ 79 00:04:41,416 --> 00:04:42,917 (roars) 80 00:04:42,999 --> 00:04:46,041 -Nate: Ready? All right! -(others shout) 81 00:04:46,124 --> 00:04:48,416 Rue: He joined the football team as a freshman 82 00:04:48,500 --> 00:04:49,291 and quickly excelled. 83 00:04:49,375 --> 00:04:50,249 -(Nate yells) -(players yelling) 84 00:04:50,333 --> 00:04:53,208 Nate: Red, 32, hut! 85 00:04:53,291 --> 00:04:56,625 Rue: By the year's end, 86 00:04:56,708 --> 00:04:58,041 he was not only the starting quarterback, 87 00:04:58,124 --> 00:04:58,999 but the team captain. 88 00:04:59,083 --> 00:05:00,500 Keep it together, Nate. Stay focused. 89 00:05:00,583 --> 00:05:01,875 All right, let's fucking go! 90 00:05:07,291 --> 00:05:10,708 (crowd cheering) 91 00:05:15,541 --> 00:05:18,958 Rue: He loved the crowds, 92 00:05:19,041 --> 00:05:21,375 the pats on the back, the cheers, the feeling of winning. 93 00:05:21,458 --> 00:05:23,083 (howls) 94 00:05:23,166 --> 00:05:26,958 (cheering) 95 00:05:27,041 --> 00:05:30,958 But he hated being in the locker room. 96 00:05:31,041 --> 00:05:32,541 He hated how casual his teammates were about being naked... 97 00:05:32,625 --> 00:05:37,208 -Woo! -(players yelling, cheering) 98 00:05:37,291 --> 00:05:40,124 Rue: ...how they'd talk to him with their dicks hanging out. 99 00:05:40,208 --> 00:05:44,917 He made a concerted effort to always maintain eye contact during these exchanges. 100 00:05:44,999 --> 00:05:46,999 Every now and then, he'd forget, 101 00:05:47,083 --> 00:05:48,333 and accidentally catch a glimpse of someone's penis. 102 00:05:48,416 --> 00:05:49,375 ♪ Oh ♪ 103 00:05:50,917 --> 00:05:52,999 ♪ Oh! ♪ 104 00:05:53,083 --> 00:05:54,333 ♪ Mm! ♪ 105 00:05:54,416 --> 00:05:56,458 ♪ Oh! ♪ 106 00:05:56,541 --> 00:05:57,917 ♪ Player, player, put the money on it ♪ 107 00:05:57,999 --> 00:05:59,124 -♪ Oh! ♪ -♪ Oh ♪ 108 00:06:00,041 --> 00:06:01,792 ♪ Oh! ♪ 109 00:06:03,083 --> 00:06:05,541 ♪ Oh! ♪ 110 00:06:05,625 --> 00:06:08,166 Rue: His older brother Aaron was a fuck-up. 111 00:06:08,249 --> 00:06:09,667 He could tell his dad didn't like Aaron, 112 00:06:09,750 --> 00:06:11,041 didn't think he had guts or brains 113 00:06:11,124 --> 00:06:12,458 or half a fucking clue. 114 00:06:12,541 --> 00:06:13,208 And Nate agreed. 115 00:06:13,291 --> 00:06:16,124 (gunshots echo) 116 00:06:16,208 --> 00:06:17,708 He didn't talk to his dad that much, 117 00:06:17,792 --> 00:06:19,708 but they didn't need to. 118 00:06:19,792 --> 00:06:21,875 They had a good relationship. 119 00:06:21,958 --> 00:06:24,291 He didn't like his mother either. 120 00:06:24,375 --> 00:06:26,708 She was weak, and a pushover. 121 00:06:26,792 --> 00:06:28,375 Plus, she didn't take care of herself. 122 00:06:28,458 --> 00:06:31,541 He made a long mental checklist 123 00:06:31,625 --> 00:06:34,375 of the things he liked and disliked about women. 124 00:06:34,458 --> 00:06:37,375 He liked tennis skirts and jean cut-offs, 125 00:06:37,458 --> 00:06:39,875 but not the kind so short you could see the pockets. 126 00:06:39,958 --> 00:06:42,375 He liked ballet flats and heels. 127 00:06:42,458 --> 00:06:45,416 He hated sneakers and dress shoes. 128 00:06:45,500 --> 00:06:48,124 What was fine with sandals, as long as they were worn with a fresh pedicure. 129 00:06:48,208 --> 00:06:50,875 He liked thigh gaps, hated cankles. 130 00:06:50,958 --> 00:06:54,875 He liked tan lines, long necks, slender shoulders. 131 00:06:54,958 --> 00:06:58,583 He liked good posture and fruit-scented body mist. 132 00:06:58,667 --> 00:07:01,667 He liked full lips, and small noses. 133 00:07:01,750 --> 00:07:03,833 He liked chokers, but the lacy ones 134 00:07:03,917 --> 00:07:05,833 with flower cutouts or delicate patterns. 135 00:07:05,917 --> 00:07:08,249 He hated girls who sat like boys, 136 00:07:08,333 --> 00:07:11,750 talked like boys, acted like boys. 137 00:07:11,833 --> 00:07:13,999 But there was nothing on planet Earth he hated more 138 00:07:14,083 --> 00:07:15,708 than body hair. 139 00:07:15,792 --> 00:07:18,999 (chattering) 140 00:07:19,083 --> 00:07:21,583 That's one of the first things he noticed about Maddy. 141 00:07:21,667 --> 00:07:22,999 She was basically hairless. 142 00:07:26,541 --> 00:07:30,750 He'd walk her home from school every day. 143 00:07:30,833 --> 00:07:34,708 It made him feel good to know that he was there to protect her. 144 00:07:34,792 --> 00:07:39,541 He knew the world was full of men who wanted to hurt Maddy. 145 00:07:39,625 --> 00:07:42,708 Men who would hang out the windows of their cars and scream obscenities at her. 146 00:07:42,792 --> 00:07:45,792 College guys who wouldn't think twice about drugging her. 147 00:07:45,875 --> 00:07:49,458 Lonely guys who'd spot her at a mall. 148 00:07:49,541 --> 00:07:54,375 Men who'd rape her, torture her, sell her into sexual slavery. 149 00:07:54,458 --> 00:07:55,458 -(Maddy gasps) -Rue: He didn't even like to think about it. 150 00:07:55,541 --> 00:07:58,458 (bindings squeaking) 151 00:07:58,541 --> 00:08:01,291 Rue: He did, however, 152 00:08:01,375 --> 00:08:03,208 like to think about the things he'd do to protect her. 153 00:08:04,375 --> 00:08:05,625 (gunshot) 154 00:08:05,708 --> 00:08:08,625 If anyone ever tried to hurt you, I'd kill them. 155 00:08:08,708 --> 00:08:11,667 You're, like, the sweetest guy ever. 156 00:08:14,708 --> 00:08:18,333 Rue: He also liked that Maddy was a virgin, 157 00:08:18,416 --> 00:08:19,792 that no guy had ever put his penis in her. 158 00:08:19,875 --> 00:08:22,083 You're a virgin? 159 00:08:22,999 --> 00:08:24,500 Yeah. 160 00:08:24,583 --> 00:08:27,708 -Like, fully? -Yeah. 161 00:08:27,792 --> 00:08:30,291 What about like... 162 00:08:30,375 --> 00:08:34,458 -Have you ever been fingered? -Only my own. 163 00:08:38,291 --> 00:08:43,416 Rue: He sometimes imagined marrying Maddy and starting a family. 164 00:08:43,500 --> 00:08:46,333 -(Nate panting) -He knew he didn't want boys, though. 165 00:08:46,416 --> 00:08:47,958 But he also didn't like the idea of having girls. 166 00:08:50,999 --> 00:08:53,708 Plus, Maddy could be a real bitch. 167 00:08:53,792 --> 00:08:55,625 Like that night at McKay's party, 168 00:08:55,708 --> 00:08:58,041 something just flipped. 169 00:08:58,124 --> 00:08:59,667 And he knew he had anger issues, 170 00:08:59,750 --> 00:09:00,583 but, I mean, so did every guy. 171 00:09:03,124 --> 00:09:08,375 It's not like there was anything in his life he could trace it back to. 172 00:09:08,458 --> 00:09:10,833 It was just... who he was, 173 00:09:10,917 --> 00:09:12,458 and who he'd always be. 174 00:09:22,792 --> 00:09:24,583 Cal: What are you doing? 175 00:09:24,667 --> 00:09:28,583 Nothing, I just came to... came to say goodnight. 176 00:09:33,416 --> 00:09:35,416 Good night. 177 00:09:36,625 --> 00:09:37,833 Good night. 178 00:09:47,333 --> 00:09:48,833 (door closes) 179 00:09:49,999 --> 00:09:52,750 (breaks squeak) 180 00:09:52,833 --> 00:09:55,750 ♪ Vroom on a Yamaha Chromed out eleven hundred ♪ 181 00:09:55,833 --> 00:09:57,083 ♪ What I'm doing, gettin' money ♪ 182 00:09:57,166 --> 00:09:59,500 ♪ What we doin', getting money ♪ 183 00:09:59,583 --> 00:10:01,708 ♪ What they doin', hatin' on us, but they never cross ♪ 184 00:10:01,792 --> 00:10:04,208 ♪ Cash money still a company, and bitch, I'm the boss ♪ 185 00:10:04,291 --> 00:10:06,166 ♪ And I be stuntin' like my daddy ♪ 186 00:10:06,249 --> 00:10:07,875 ♪ Stuntin' like my daddy, Stuntin' like my daddy ♪ 187 00:10:09,833 --> 00:10:13,124 Rue: It was the first day of school, and my heart was racing. 188 00:10:19,249 --> 00:10:24,917 I had made a new best friend, and for the first time since getting out of rehab, 189 00:10:24,999 --> 00:10:26,375 I was feeling good about the world. 190 00:10:28,041 --> 00:10:29,999 Rue: I've got an idea. 191 00:10:31,833 --> 00:10:33,541 What? 192 00:10:34,124 --> 00:10:36,249 Wanna get high? 193 00:10:36,333 --> 00:10:38,583 Jules: What is it? 194 00:10:39,249 --> 00:10:40,833 No idea. 195 00:10:40,917 --> 00:10:43,541 Didn't you just get out of rehab? 196 00:10:44,458 --> 00:10:46,083 Yeah. 197 00:10:46,166 --> 00:10:48,458 Should I be concerned? 198 00:10:48,541 --> 00:10:50,333 Maybe. 199 00:10:50,416 --> 00:10:52,999 I feel like this isn't a good idea. 200 00:10:53,083 --> 00:10:55,500 I kinda disagree. 201 00:10:59,875 --> 00:11:01,875 Jules (slowed voice): Rue. 202 00:11:06,083 --> 00:11:10,792 ♪ Yeah, Mount Everest ain't got shit on me ♪ 203 00:11:10,875 --> 00:11:14,375 (slowed speech): Do you feel anything? 204 00:11:14,458 --> 00:11:16,792 Jules: Uh-uh. 205 00:11:16,875 --> 00:11:19,041 ♪ 'Cause I'm on top of the world ♪ 206 00:11:19,124 --> 00:11:21,875 Do you feel anything? 207 00:11:21,958 --> 00:11:23,917 Rue: No. 208 00:11:24,999 --> 00:11:28,708 Jules: Rue, what's wrong? 209 00:11:28,792 --> 00:11:32,333 Just so happy. 210 00:11:32,416 --> 00:11:32,917 ♪ 'Cause I'm on top of the world ♪ 211 00:11:32,999 --> 00:11:35,124 (both laugh softly) 212 00:11:35,208 --> 00:11:36,875 Whoa. 213 00:11:36,958 --> 00:11:40,041 -Whoa. -(both laugh) 214 00:11:40,124 --> 00:11:41,083 Rue: I know you're not allowed to say it... 215 00:11:45,416 --> 00:11:46,458 ...but drugs are kind of cool. 216 00:11:49,583 --> 00:11:51,917 Rue: Whoa. 217 00:11:51,999 --> 00:11:55,041 I mean, they're cool before they wreck your skin... 218 00:11:55,124 --> 00:11:56,500 -(distant siren blaring) -...and your life... 219 00:11:57,416 --> 00:11:59,166 Can you grab me a towel? 220 00:12:00,124 --> 00:12:02,124 -Rue: ...and your family. -(sobbing) 221 00:12:02,208 --> 00:12:05,124 Paramedic: Gia, I need you to grab me a towel. 222 00:12:05,208 --> 00:12:06,792 -MAN: What have you got? -Paramedic: I found her down. 223 00:12:06,875 --> 00:12:09,500 I gave her one dose of Narcan... 224 00:12:09,583 --> 00:12:11,333 Rue: That's when they get uncool. 225 00:12:11,416 --> 00:12:12,999 ♪ Oh! ♪ 226 00:12:15,458 --> 00:12:18,958 Rue: It's actually a very narrow window of cool. 227 00:12:24,792 --> 00:12:27,583 (ambulance siren blares) 228 00:12:27,667 --> 00:12:28,875 ♪ Doing it all for love ♪ 229 00:12:28,958 --> 00:12:30,792 Paramedic: I'll wait with you until your mother comes home. 230 00:12:30,875 --> 00:12:34,333 You want to watch some TV? 231 00:12:34,416 --> 00:12:36,083 Rue: And once you pass through that window of cool... 232 00:12:36,166 --> 00:12:37,416 ♪ Doing it all for love ♪ 233 00:12:37,500 --> 00:12:39,833 This is embarrassing. 234 00:12:40,249 --> 00:12:42,541 I feel like everyone knows. 235 00:12:43,166 --> 00:12:47,833 Rue, I don't want to turn this into a competition, 236 00:12:47,917 --> 00:12:51,083 but, like, I win. 237 00:12:51,458 --> 00:12:53,249 -For, like, a multitude of reasons. -I just... 238 00:12:53,333 --> 00:12:55,708 I don't want to deal with all the fucking questions. 239 00:12:55,792 --> 00:12:57,667 I still win. 240 00:13:03,917 --> 00:13:06,166 Wait, you're alive? 241 00:13:06,792 --> 00:13:09,458 -Like, what the fuck? -(Jules laughs) 242 00:13:10,667 --> 00:13:13,458 Oh, shit, that's the girl who tried to commit suicide at McKay's. 243 00:13:13,541 --> 00:13:14,917 Cassie and Maddy: Wait, what? 244 00:13:14,999 --> 00:13:18,208 Oh, yeah. I forgot. You guys both was fuckin'. 245 00:13:18,291 --> 00:13:22,458 Ugh! Why does everybody think we fucked? 246 00:13:22,541 --> 00:13:24,625 ♪ Yeah, I know the pussy ♪ 247 00:13:24,708 --> 00:13:27,625 Rue: Now Maddy knew she had an optics issue, 248 00:13:27,708 --> 00:13:30,124 along with a mountain of evidence against her. 249 00:13:30,208 --> 00:13:32,166 So, last night, while texting with Nate... 250 00:13:32,249 --> 00:13:35,041 (phone chimes) 251 00:13:35,124 --> 00:13:36,792 ...Maddy had an idea. 252 00:13:36,875 --> 00:13:39,541 (phone bloops) 253 00:13:42,750 --> 00:13:44,541 (phone bloops) 254 00:13:44,750 --> 00:13:46,792 Alcohol is not good for me. 255 00:13:46,875 --> 00:13:48,833 So you did fuck him. 256 00:13:48,917 --> 00:13:52,333 -Honestly, I think I blacked out. -Cassie and BB: For real? 257 00:13:52,416 --> 00:13:54,166 Maddy! 258 00:13:54,249 --> 00:13:55,583 Hey, you. 259 00:13:55,667 --> 00:13:57,958 BB: Oh, look! It's our new sexpert! 260 00:13:58,041 --> 00:14:01,999 -Congratulations, bitch! -Welcome to the club! 261 00:14:02,083 --> 00:14:04,124 Rue: Now, when Kat told BB she lost her virginity 262 00:14:04,208 --> 00:14:07,291 to some dude whose name she didn't remember, 263 00:14:07,375 --> 00:14:10,667 she knew she'd tell Maddy, and Cassie, and the rest of the fucking planet Earth. 264 00:14:10,750 --> 00:14:13,291 But that was kind of the point. 265 00:14:13,375 --> 00:14:14,958 She was just relived that it was no longer a thing. 266 00:14:15,041 --> 00:14:17,208 (students murmuring) 267 00:14:32,458 --> 00:14:33,999 Mm. 268 00:14:34,083 --> 00:14:36,083 Hey, I'm Ethan. 269 00:14:36,166 --> 00:14:38,708 Please don't be a mass shooter. 270 00:14:38,792 --> 00:14:40,375 What? 271 00:14:40,458 --> 00:14:44,041 (snickers) Sorry, it's just, like, the first thing that came to mind. 272 00:14:44,124 --> 00:14:46,708 Oh, my God. 273 00:14:46,792 --> 00:14:48,875 Am I giving off shooter vibes? 274 00:14:48,958 --> 00:14:50,458 -Eh. -Really? 275 00:14:50,541 --> 00:14:53,041 -Eh, you know. -Shit. (laughs) 276 00:14:53,124 --> 00:14:56,583 Look, I don't know. What's your Reddit username? 277 00:14:56,999 --> 00:14:59,667 Um, it's IncelUprising. 278 00:15:01,708 --> 00:15:06,124 -I'm joking. A joke. (chuckles) -(Kat chuckles) 279 00:15:09,041 --> 00:15:10,875 I'm Kat. 280 00:15:10,958 --> 00:15:12,541 Uh, I'm Ethan. 281 00:15:12,625 --> 00:15:15,041 -Yeah, you said that. -(bell rings) 282 00:15:15,124 --> 00:15:17,416 Biology teacher: Okay, listen up, everybody. 283 00:15:17,500 --> 00:15:20,083 Welcome to Biology 301. 284 00:15:20,166 --> 00:15:23,375 Mrs. Applegate: So, let's start with a little improvisation. 285 00:15:23,458 --> 00:15:28,500 I'd like each of you to get up and tell us a five-minute story about your summer. 286 00:15:28,583 --> 00:15:29,999 (Rue groans softly) 287 00:15:30,083 --> 00:15:33,083 Looks like we have our first volunteer: Rue. 288 00:15:33,166 --> 00:15:35,041 Rue (mutters): Please don't do this to me. 289 00:15:35,124 --> 00:15:38,208 Come on, everyone. Let's give her a little encouragement. 290 00:16:01,500 --> 00:16:03,625 Rue: Um, a memory? 291 00:16:03,708 --> 00:16:07,333 Mrs. Applegate: Anything that had an impact on you this summer. 292 00:16:09,625 --> 00:16:11,958 Uh, I don't... I don't... 293 00:16:12,041 --> 00:16:14,333 I can't think of... 294 00:16:16,291 --> 00:16:19,458 Mrs. Applegate: Just... relax your body. 295 00:16:19,541 --> 00:16:22,667 -Release the tension. -(Rue exhales) 296 00:16:22,750 --> 00:16:25,792 Mrs. Applegate: And just breathe. 297 00:16:25,875 --> 00:16:30,208 We recommend taking her directly to the rehabilitation center. 298 00:16:35,875 --> 00:16:38,625 So this... this summer? 299 00:16:38,708 --> 00:16:40,667 Mrs. Applegate: Yes. 300 00:16:46,249 --> 00:16:48,708 ♪ Mm-mm-mm-mm ♪ 301 00:16:52,917 --> 00:16:54,375 (sniffles) 302 00:17:01,833 --> 00:17:03,416 Let's go. 303 00:17:08,249 --> 00:17:12,500 I'm-- I'm having trouble, uh, like, remembering... 304 00:17:12,583 --> 00:17:13,917 uh, something, you know. 305 00:17:13,999 --> 00:17:17,583 Mrs. Applegate: Just tell us a specific memory. 306 00:17:17,667 --> 00:17:20,249 Rue: Uh, okay. Uh... 307 00:17:20,333 --> 00:17:24,375 I was, um, with my mom, and my, uh, my little sister, 308 00:17:24,458 --> 00:17:26,375 and we were, uh, listening to this... 309 00:17:26,458 --> 00:17:28,249 this song. 310 00:17:37,958 --> 00:17:39,625 ♪ Fly ♪ 311 00:17:41,999 --> 00:17:43,999 ♪ Fly me to the moon ♪ 312 00:17:44,083 --> 00:17:46,166 I know you know this song. 313 00:17:47,958 --> 00:17:53,833 ♪ And let me play among the stars ♪ 314 00:17:56,458 --> 00:17:57,999 ♪ Let me see ♪ 315 00:17:58,083 --> 00:18:01,333 (chattering, laughing) 316 00:18:01,416 --> 00:18:03,291 ♪ Oh, I wanna see what spring is like ♪ 317 00:18:05,333 --> 00:18:07,833 ♪ On Jupiter ♪ 318 00:18:08,708 --> 00:18:12,124 ♪ On Jupiter and Mars ♪ 319 00:18:13,375 --> 00:18:15,124 ♪ In other words ♪ 320 00:18:17,166 --> 00:18:19,208 ♪ Hold my hand ♪ 321 00:18:20,833 --> 00:18:23,291 ♪ In other words, darling ♪ 322 00:18:23,375 --> 00:18:26,333 -♪ I love ya ♪ -(Gia giggles) 323 00:18:26,999 --> 00:18:29,124 ♪ Girl ♪ 324 00:18:29,208 --> 00:18:30,500 ♪ Fill ♪ 325 00:18:32,667 --> 00:18:35,041 ♪ Fill my heart with song ♪ 326 00:18:37,792 --> 00:18:40,208 ♪ I wanna sing to ya, darling ♪ 327 00:18:41,792 --> 00:18:43,375 ♪ Forevermore ♪ 328 00:18:43,458 --> 00:18:45,500 (arguing) 329 00:18:45,583 --> 00:18:47,166 Leslie: Are you doing drugs in my house? 330 00:18:47,249 --> 00:18:50,833 -Rue: What are you doing? -(shouting indistinctly) 331 00:18:51,792 --> 00:18:53,249 Keep it! 332 00:18:53,333 --> 00:18:55,458 (laughing): I'm not joking! 333 00:18:55,541 --> 00:18:57,917 I need to... I need to go! 334 00:18:57,999 --> 00:19:00,792 -Dad's so fucking proud, Mom. -Oh, really? 335 00:19:00,875 --> 00:19:03,208 Dad's so fucking proud. 336 00:19:03,999 --> 00:19:05,458 Rue: Get off of me! 337 00:19:05,541 --> 00:19:07,291 -I don't give-- -Rue: Get off of me! 338 00:19:07,375 --> 00:19:11,583 Back the fuck up. Back the fuck up and let me out of this fucking house. 339 00:19:11,667 --> 00:19:14,083 ♪ I'm simply trying to tell you ♪ 340 00:19:14,166 --> 00:19:16,500 ♪ That I care for ya, darling ♪ 341 00:19:16,583 --> 00:19:17,667 Here we go now. 342 00:19:17,750 --> 00:19:19,041 ♪ Ha! ♪ 343 00:19:19,875 --> 00:19:22,041 ♪ Fly ♪ 344 00:19:22,124 --> 00:19:26,708 ♪ Fly, fly, fly, fly, fly, Fly me to the moon ♪ 345 00:19:26,792 --> 00:19:30,166 -(Rue chattering) -(Leslie laughing) 346 00:19:30,249 --> 00:19:31,958 ♪ And let me play among... ♪ 347 00:19:33,708 --> 00:19:35,917 (monitor beeping rhythmically) 348 00:20:09,291 --> 00:20:11,792 (sniffling) 349 00:20:15,541 --> 00:20:18,792 I'm sorry, but I-- I can't think of anything, so... 350 00:20:21,208 --> 00:20:22,708 Mrs. Applegate: Just... 351 00:20:22,792 --> 00:20:25,375 Um... uh... 352 00:20:25,458 --> 00:20:28,083 I'm, uh... I'm done. 353 00:20:29,375 --> 00:20:31,958 -Rue: Do I have to do this? -Girl 1: She's a mess, dude. 354 00:20:32,041 --> 00:20:35,083 Honestly, I bet it's brain damage. 355 00:20:35,166 --> 00:20:36,999 You're being fucking rude. 356 00:20:52,999 --> 00:20:54,458 (lock clicks) 357 00:21:04,667 --> 00:21:06,792 -(knocking) -(whispers): Fuck. 358 00:21:06,875 --> 00:21:09,083 -(blows) -(coughs) 359 00:21:09,166 --> 00:21:10,333 (toilet flushes) 360 00:21:11,708 --> 00:21:13,416 Lexi: Rue, it's me. 361 00:21:13,500 --> 00:21:14,999 (groans) 362 00:21:16,500 --> 00:21:17,917 Are you okay? 363 00:21:18,416 --> 00:21:21,917 -You are so fucking stupid, Lexi. -Why? 364 00:21:21,999 --> 00:21:24,958 'Cause I already flushed everything down the fucking toilet. 365 00:21:25,041 --> 00:21:26,500 Well, I just came to check on you. 366 00:21:26,583 --> 00:21:28,625 I don't w-- I don't want you to fucking check on me, 367 00:21:28,708 --> 00:21:30,375 whether I'm fine or I'm not fine. 368 00:21:30,458 --> 00:21:31,875 What difference are you going to make? 369 00:21:31,958 --> 00:21:33,999 Are you going to give me some life advice? 370 00:21:34,083 --> 00:21:35,667 You gonna fucking help me? 371 00:21:35,750 --> 00:21:37,708 Well, you're, like, one of my best friends. 372 00:21:37,792 --> 00:21:40,917 Give me a fucking break. 'Cause we went to fucking pre-school together? 373 00:21:41,708 --> 00:21:44,249 That does not make us best fucking friends. 374 00:21:45,875 --> 00:21:47,958 You say all this, but what happens in three days 375 00:21:48,041 --> 00:21:50,958 when you knock on my door asking me to piss in some Tylenol bottle? 376 00:21:51,041 --> 00:21:53,458 What, you're gonna say the opposite? 377 00:21:53,541 --> 00:21:56,750 How we've known each other since pre-school and we're best friends? 378 00:21:56,833 --> 00:21:59,458 It's like you have a split personality disorder. 379 00:21:59,541 --> 00:22:02,500 Sorry if I miss the old you. 380 00:22:08,999 --> 00:22:11,375 I slept like shit, too. 381 00:22:12,958 --> 00:22:15,416 Yeah, I miss you. 382 00:23:26,833 --> 00:23:29,708 Ali: My name is Ali, and I'm an addict. 383 00:23:29,792 --> 00:23:31,667 Crowd: Hi, Ali. 384 00:23:31,750 --> 00:23:33,875 Actually, an addict is a nice word for it. 385 00:23:33,958 --> 00:23:36,667 I was a stone-cold crackhead. 386 00:23:37,333 --> 00:23:40,166 I was also a firefighter, so I thought, you know... 387 00:23:40,249 --> 00:23:43,458 the two might cancel each other out. As long as I saved lives, 388 00:23:43,541 --> 00:23:46,291 I was well within my right to destroy my own. 389 00:23:47,999 --> 00:23:50,041 The problem was, I was... 390 00:23:51,083 --> 00:23:54,958 I was also a father, to two young girls. 391 00:23:56,333 --> 00:23:58,833 My girls live in Texas. 392 00:23:59,999 --> 00:24:02,333 I speak to them whenever I can. 393 00:24:02,416 --> 00:24:05,833 Drugs can take away a lot. 394 00:24:07,667 --> 00:24:10,708 Rue: The first time I tried Oxycontin, I was 13. 395 00:24:10,792 --> 00:24:12,958 (monitor beeping rhythmically) 396 00:24:13,041 --> 00:24:15,333 What do these feel like? 397 00:24:18,249 --> 00:24:20,875 They're the absolute worst. 398 00:24:22,583 --> 00:24:26,708 Rue: I used to take care of my dad after school 399 00:24:26,792 --> 00:24:28,416 because my mom had to take a second job to cover the medical bills. 400 00:24:30,083 --> 00:24:33,375 (coughs softly) 401 00:24:33,458 --> 00:24:36,999 Rue: A state-issued nurse would come by every day for two hours, 402 00:24:37,083 --> 00:24:38,750 and she'd, legit, just play Candy Crush on her phone. 403 00:24:40,708 --> 00:24:43,958 But, anyway, the point is, 404 00:24:44,041 --> 00:24:45,999 he had, like, a bunch of pills. 405 00:25:00,999 --> 00:25:03,249 (monitor beeping rhythmically) 406 00:25:13,917 --> 00:25:17,124 -(woman humming on TV) -(Robert and Rue laughing quietly) 407 00:25:20,124 --> 00:25:23,999 (both laughing) 408 00:25:24,083 --> 00:25:26,875 (humming) 409 00:25:28,833 --> 00:25:31,625 Rue: He was too out of it to know I was high. 410 00:25:32,458 --> 00:25:35,875 And I always have the best time with you. 411 00:25:35,958 --> 00:25:37,999 Robert: Me, too. 412 00:25:38,083 --> 00:25:40,291 -(woman singing on TV) -Man (on TV): Do you mind?! 413 00:25:40,375 --> 00:25:43,958 (Robert and Rue laughing) 414 00:25:48,625 --> 00:25:51,833 Hey. Uh, I'm gonna need you to do me a big favor. 415 00:25:51,917 --> 00:25:54,041 You see, there are a bunch of these meetings 416 00:25:54,124 --> 00:25:56,833 that I was supposed to attend that I didn't... 417 00:25:56,917 --> 00:25:59,291 actually attend, so... 418 00:25:59,375 --> 00:26:03,249 I'm gonna need you to backdate this slip. 419 00:26:04,958 --> 00:26:07,166 Uh, yeah. 420 00:26:07,249 --> 00:26:10,750 Ethically, that's a line I will not cross. 421 00:26:10,833 --> 00:26:12,458 Hmm. 422 00:26:15,833 --> 00:26:17,625 What if I, uh... 423 00:26:17,708 --> 00:26:19,667 suck your dick? 424 00:26:26,333 --> 00:26:28,208 Like, in my car? 425 00:26:29,541 --> 00:26:33,083 I'm 17, you fucking creep. Sign the slip. 426 00:26:33,166 --> 00:26:34,375 (clears throat) 427 00:26:40,333 --> 00:26:42,416 Pleasure doing business with you. 428 00:26:42,500 --> 00:26:44,667 Man (whispering): Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit. 429 00:26:54,625 --> 00:26:56,500 Leslie: Rue. 430 00:26:58,458 --> 00:27:00,166 Love you. 431 00:27:00,958 --> 00:27:02,500 Love you, too. 432 00:27:04,291 --> 00:27:07,833 (show playing indistinctly) 433 00:27:09,291 --> 00:27:11,500 (phone chimes) 434 00:27:27,041 --> 00:27:29,416 -(TV show plays) -(phone buzzes) 435 00:27:32,208 --> 00:27:34,083 (woman moans on phone) 436 00:27:36,041 --> 00:27:38,583 Um, I'm gonna be right back. 437 00:27:41,750 --> 00:27:42,875 (Kat moaning) 438 00:27:42,958 --> 00:27:44,667 -Wes: Fuck, yeah. -(slapping) 439 00:27:44,750 --> 00:27:47,500 -(moaning continues) -Wes: Fucking slut. 440 00:27:49,750 --> 00:27:51,249 (murmurs): Oh, fuck! 441 00:27:51,333 --> 00:27:54,458 Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck... 442 00:27:58,625 --> 00:28:00,124 (phone bloops) 443 00:28:03,917 --> 00:28:07,667 -(phone bloops) -Kat (sighs): Oh. 444 00:28:07,750 --> 00:28:09,999 Rue: She never admitted it, 445 00:28:10,083 --> 00:28:12,500 and no one could ever prove it, 446 00:28:12,583 --> 00:28:13,833 but we all knew it was her. 447 00:28:13,917 --> 00:28:16,541 (students chattering) 448 00:28:31,917 --> 00:28:35,124 -(door slams) -(retching)